Saturday, November 28, 2009

Sem 3 done with

Finally sem 3 is over (since 2 weeks ago, this post is rather late =D) and another half year to go before I'll be free from the clutches of shah alam/intec =P. This semester is definitely the most hectic sem ever. Sometimes, I find myself so tensed up and worried about work that I find it hard to breathe and think normally. This was remedied nonetheless by sitting aimlessly in the middle of a pathway at Cemara hostel with Amy staring at the starless sky reminiscing about how life was SO much more easier back in high school. How much more enjoyable and fun form 4/5 life was. How we could play hard and still get things done on time. Somehow.

But then on the other hand, despite how heavy the workload we had, we had one of the most enjoyable times of our lives. Regardless of the fact that we had never-ending tests almost every week, we managed to squeeze in time for planning the best ever surprise birthday celebrations, and my, was that fun. In the midst of all these celebrations, unknowingly, we were all getting closer to each other, strengthening the friendship we had.

One day, standing on the bus heading back to my hostel, a thought suddenly struck me. I no longer hated this place anymore. Nor did I like it. But I've just gotten used to it. I knew I will never (in a million years or so to come) like this place but I've finally felt comfortable here. I finally feel like I actually fit in here. I love the friends I've met here. I love the bond we all share with each other. And that all compensates for the crappy place and rules I have to put up with. And I'm perfectly fine with that.

This semester can be summed up as a roller coaster ride of emotions for me. There were tears of joy, tears of frustration and tears of desperation. And through it all, I was blessed with the greatest of house/roommates, family and friends to pull me through. =) This semester really tested my limits, but it also revealed to me how throughly blessed I was. And I'm grateful for everything. =)


Friday, October 16, 2009

Little girl

Sometimes I wish for a moment there,
Can I be that little girl again,
That stuck to her daddy all the time,
following him on business trips all around.

Or the little girl who was so naive,
that got easily scared of horror stories,
and as the darkness creeps in,
will hold her brother's hand to sleep.

Can I be the little girl,
whose head could only reach up to the tabletop,
eyeing the plate of food on the table,
begging mummy for another piece.

And the girl that lies her head,
upon her sister's lap she rests.
As her sister brushes her hair,
and braids it into a neat little plait.

Sometimes I wonder whether I really could,
turn back time and keep it there,
ban all worries from my head,
and smile like a little girl once again.

So can I be that girl once more,
And cuddle in Your arms and tell You my troubles,
and will you hold me tight,
and reassure me that every thing's gonna be alright?

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Mooncake Festival and Qi Ying's Birthday



Love the last group photos and I love you guys. =)

Friday, October 2, 2009

CA Birthday celebration


Us singing to Vitamin C's "Graduation" song with Larry playing the guitar.


The September babies - Esmond, Amy and I =D


Chocolate cake..Bliss~

With Nic darling and CK.

Being random with Amy. =D
Amy, me and my roomie dearest.



The three of us again =)


Yik Chen, Amy and I.. Ex-highians at INTEC. =)

We laughing coz of something funny....Can't really say what it was though.. =P Esmond looks like Lik, doesn't he??? =)




Last group photo with the last remaining piece of cake.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Thank you =)

Thank you all for the birthday sms-es, some from cemara, some next door, some from kl, some from Kuching and some all the way from NZ =) and even Aus! =)
Uber thanks to my bro for calling at the stroke of midnight just to wish me happy birthday
So grateful for all the facebook birthday wishes. =) You guys rock my page =P
Touched by my roomie's handmade gift- she made a jarful of stars =)
Super touched by the birthday song by my classmates =)
Feel so blessed to have Faiz and Intan come with cake =) so cute... =)
And sis jian ming dropping by all the way to give me my gift
And my super sweet classmates that came over with a huge chocolate cake =)
and Amy coming over just to give me my presents =D
And the surprise celebration by the CA gang =)
Bliss~ =)
THANK YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Chocolate brownies =)




Birthday gift with love =)

Thanks guys so so much for the personalized mug. Love it =)











Love you guys so so much. =) uber thankyou. Am blessed to have you all as friends =)

Monday, September 21, 2009

Stunned, Shocked, Surprised =)

It all began when my roommate came back from class looking rather down. Noticing her moodiness I attempted to ask her what was wrong but she merely shrugged and said nothing. I tried to cheer her up but failed miserably. Puzzled, I sms-ed her classmates to dig out what was bothering her, nevertheless, they were all as confused as I was. They all said the same thing ,she was perfectly bubbly and joyful in the morning but in the afternoon her mood took a 180 degrees turn and she just wasn't talking to anyone. Worried as I was, I decided to leave it as it is, hoping that she'll brighten up eventually.

Due to the unpredictable weather, I decided to message Qi Ying so that we could exercise in the study room together. Qi Ying agreed but said that she'll have to return back earlier as she planned to cook before J-Cyn left for her prayer meeting. After the exercise, I wanted to go to the Ramadhan bazaar as this was the last time I will be able to go for it this year. Despite the fact that Qi Ying was in a hurry, she insisted in tagging along. Going to the bazaar at 7 pm ++ was really fun because stall vendors were handing out free food - kuihs, paus, and the like- and I was even given a huge pack of warm soya. =) Surprisingly, Qi Ying forbid me to eat too much of the food I was given, simply saying that she wants me to save some tummy space for our midvalley outing the next day. Naive as I was, I handed over some of the kuih to her for safe-keeping. =P

Zaharah was the only one in our unit when I returned to the room. She then prompt me about YS's mood and stated that she saw that my roomie was close to tears when she left the room for dinner. After chatting with Zaharah for a couple of minutes, she suddenly started scolding me and chasing me to take my bath. Assuming that she was in one of her playful moods again, I decided to do as she ordered. Just as I stepped out of the bathroom, my phone rang. Qi Ying called me in a state of frenzy saying that my roomie got into a terrible argument with her friend and was now crying uncontrollably at the canteen. She frantically ask me to come help console her. Just as I was about to leave the room, my neighbour came up informing me about the same thing saying that she saw YS break down and there was nothing that anyone could do to console her.

Concerned, I hurried over to Cemara canteen. Upon arriving there, I saw my roomie with Ker Yin sitting together with their backs facing towards me. Anxiously, I rushed up to her, never bothering to look around me, and sat next to her while putting my arm around her in an attempt to comfort her. Surprisingly, she turn around and smiled at me, saying to me that she was just fine. Simultaneously, a pudding/cake materialized out of nowhere and a whole bunch of people started to surround me singing a birthday song. I was so surprised that I didn't even turn to look at the birthday cake, and just continued staring at my roommate in shock. Only after a while did reality kick in and I realized how gullible I had been. >.< ' And yes, they were throwing me a surprise birthday party. =)

ALM has really really good potential actresses/actors and I am so blessed to have such wonderful friends. =) Thanks guys for the creatively planned surprise party and thanks so so much for all the effort put in to actually trick me. =) Thanks so so so much everyone. Words can't express how grateful I am to have you all as friends. =) Lotsa thanks to Qi Ying for specially making the healthy fruit pudding/cake. =) And I had a great time at Midvalley the next day. Reached hostel at a record time of 12 midnight. =) ah bliss. =)

And uber thanks to Nana too for the box of surprises =) love it. =)

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Digging up old tracks

Like this:

Zomg how could I have ever forgotten bout this song.

And this:





Love the music. Tons. =)

Anyways, met up with a couple of my old buddies a few days back.



Haven't seen Amy in a while, a month or so to be exact =.=' . Although we have been studying in the same place. Amazing what INTEC does to you. =P



And ended up doing some bimbotic stuff. =) I love how we all are in greenish strips. =)

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Wonders

I guess miracles do happen in real life..ain't it so?
Guess I just need to have a little more faith. =)

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Messed up

I know I'm supposed to feel elated, excited, enthusiastic, overjoyed.. you name it.. but I'm just feeling the opposite. INTEC closing for a week due to the H1N1 virus is.... nothing but a shock to me. Going home is supposed to be a good thing. Having holidays come early is supposed to be like a dream come true. But the only thing I feel is messed up. My mind is a jumble of tangles and knots. I can't think well I can't function normally. The only thing on my mind is the cancellation of Mid-sem break. I had everything planned out so well. Planning how I was going to breeze pass this remaining month. Meeting my sister back home. Going for family outings. Meeting friends. The perfect august holidays. Now, its just like *poof* and everything is gone with a snap of your fingers. And have I mentioned about the price of the tickets..I don't know what to pack. I'm afraid, worried and feeling like I'm gonna cry again. This is so not what I should feel. Just when I thought I had my momentum going, finally having the willpower to survive this remaining few weeks, everything is just halted abruptly. I hope I'll survive. I do hope so.. I've just gotta untangle this mess in my head. Praying real hard. Telling myself everything happens for a reason. Trying to find the light at the end of the tunnel. Biting my tongue to stop cursing again. Praying real hard. I'll survive INTEC.... some how...

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Growing up

The emotional tortures, why doesn't it ever go away?
As time passes, isn't one suppose to get use to everything?
Why is the frustration and tears still there?
Why does the tears flow for no reason?
Why does the urge to scream doesn't ever go away?
Why does the ability to laugh naturally seems far-fetched?
Why does memories cause you to lose control?
Why does staring into space become a daily routine?
Why does the feeling to curl up into a ball and shut yourself away from the world seems welcoming?
Why do you feel like you're losing your mind?
Why do you feel hopeless?
Why can't the tears stop?
Why can't anyone stop the pain?
Why can't everything be as it was?
Why can't anything seem to be able to cheer you up?





Why does growing up hurt so much?
Why do we have to grow up?

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Emo-ing

Can I don't go back???


starting to have nightmares again..... T.T

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Kuching Outing Photos


Brownies =)



Photos taken by my bro..drooling now? =)

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Permai Trip I love

Woohoo... went kayaking for the first time. Ever. Ever. Am elated. Excited. Proud of myself. 

Day started off with Florence asking whether she'll have the chance to see a jellyfish up close and personal. This girl is really one of a kind. For most people, jellyfish=deadly=stay away . Her interpretation is jellyfish=interesting=let's examine. >.<' Our theme song for the day was "Move It, Move It", don't ask me why, that song just pop out of nowhere.

Flo became my kayaking partner. Tina opt to stay on the beach where its safer and where you have no chance of your boat capsizing and causing you to drown (kidding 'bout the drowning part). Flo utilized the precious moments we had alone on our kayak by educating me about starfishes and jellyfishes which are her current obsession ( CJK better watch out. =) starfishes and jellyfishes shall be your worst enemy. =P). Had a blur memory of her saying something about starfishes being dangerous because they can attach to you and secrete some enzymes (blah) which dissolves your tissue??? Sorry Flo dear, I was too busy trying to get our boat on course. Somehow magically our kayak keep seeming to deviate from our planned course and headed towards jellyfishes. I think it has something to do with Flo who kept yelling "jellyfishes, come to mama" =.=' We were the last to arrive at the meeting point and my bro's friend had the nerve to announce solemnly ala amazing race style " I'm sorry to say you're the last team to arrive...."

On the way back one kayak actually capsized. Somehow. Despite my bro saying that the chances of capsizing= chances of getting into an accident on the road on the way back. But all was fine. =) 

We attempted to play frisbee for a while but gave up eventually cos the weather was scorchingly hot. The sand was practically burning our feet. Flo was excited to find a dead jellyfish drifting in a stream and started prodding it with a stick. Somehow, we eventually got around to dissecting the jellyfish using a piece of broken plastic and used the frisbee as a plate to hold the jellyfish pieces. =P

We played saboteur again! Full version!! =) 10 players =) Amy, if you're reading this, Tina is still so adorably blur! haha, she kena influenced by Flo and helped the wrong team. =P Somebody, anybody wanna play? :) 

All in all, it was a great day. Got to meet some of me juniors I haven't met for ages. Angelina, Shu Yi, Val, baby Char, claudia, Agnes..... =) me misses you all lots.. =) 

The Weather

Am feeling so utterly sticky now....
Am super glad I'm nowhere near Shah Alam..
Am uber thankful that my parents installed an air-con unit in my room
Am annoyed why I can't seem to be able to transfer photos from my hp to the computer
Am supposed to be in bed right now
Am wondering what I did for the past 2 weeks
Am chastising myself for not starting to edit my bio unit 3 thingy
Am procrastinating
Am blog-hopping
Am amazed how one's blog reveals so much about one's personality
Am realizing how kepo I'm by reading other's blog
Am reassuring self that it is a girl's nature to be kepo
Am repeatedly trying to transfer data from my hp to the lappie
Am missing my 5s2 gang badly 
Am regretting how much we all have seem to drift apart
Am missing my KHS juniors..
Am missing my sons and daughters and grandsons n granddaughters..
you guys know who you are =)
Am wishing I didn't even stepped into INTEC 
Am hopeful that this is just a bad dream
Am wishing to be young and carefree again
Am praying hard that this hols passes super duper slowly 
Am being emo again
Am hating Shah Alam
for no apparent reason
Am satisfied cuz I managed to transfer the photos
finally
Am having to turn in now
Big day ahead
Yawn
Up ahead...scandalous sem 2 pictures...kidding

Monday, June 1, 2009

Seven Pounds


Go watch. Touching. Moving. Saddening. Will Smith is a superb actor. Amazing story that shows how one person can change and touch the lives of so many others. Makes you wonder what you could do for the world.

Friday, May 29, 2009

Movies, tv shows and such

Night at the museum 2 was hilarious. A great watch. =) Practically laughed my head off watching it.

Wait...where's my head? =P  

Finally got a good look at Kuching's only functioning cinema which was and still is under renovation. Obviously the cinema has turned into someone's fantasy land. The colours are...erm amazing. The lifts are now brightly lit. And the lifts are so new till the open buttons on the lift are not functioning. =P

The final episode of season 2 of Gossip Girl was satisfying enough. Finally, F-I-N-A-L-L-Y the emergence of Chair(chuck+blair). The ending was sweet..can't wait for more.

Bride wars was so-so. A few funny moments here and there. But it still can't beat 27 dresses. That movie just makes you go "Awwwwwwww........"

Hotel for Dogs is cute. That sorta light, enjoyable disney-like happy-ending movies. The dogs are so adorableeeeeeeeeeeee........

Wolverine is gooooooddddddd if you're watching the original. If you've got the ciplak copy of it expect wires hanging everywhere and an imaginary island. HAHAHA, its hilarious once you come to think of it. =D but its still good.

Shopaholic is embarrassingly funny. In a bimbotic way.

Angus, thongs and perfect snogging is nice nice nice especially if you're a girl. *drools* If you get what I mean. Brits speak so....*sigh blissfully*

Marley and me is a good watch too. =) ROFL at the part when Marley was half out of the car (watch and you'll know). Sad ending though. Beware, it can make you cry. sniff.

Scanned through Butterfly Effect 3. Gross. Seriously gross. BE3 turned into some horror film filled with gore. So much for a superb Butterfly Effect 1 and 2.

Be With You is touching. An amazing japanese love story. Family orientated kind not the typical soapy moany love triangle blah crap.

Chuck season 2 is nice. Woot~ Chuck knows kung fuuuuuuuuuu..... =D

Taylor Swift's latest album is a hit!! whoa~~ 

p/s Saboteur anyone??? Laser tag?? 

Friday, May 22, 2009

Second Sem Conquered

And before you know it, another semester is gone. It always amazes me how fast time passes. I can't believe tat about a year ago I entered INTEC. One year, 12 months, 365 days, 21900 hours, 1314000 minutes, 78840000 seconds of my life just pass by like that. =) Maybe its the fact that I kept looking forward to coming back that the rest of the days seems to drift by, maybe its because my life there is so mundane and routine (or simply you say i have no life there =p),or maybe its because this sem was so packed with assignments, reports, tests etc etc that time seems to fly, anyway I'm just glad to be back A-G-A-I-N ( i know I've repeated this countless times, but when you're stuck in a place called Shah Alam Section 18 all you can dream of is coming back to your home.)


To sum up this semester has been err... Hectic? I can proudly declare I've been a really really good girl this sem. Remember how I used to say how I cannot stand not going out of shah alam for a week? Well, this sem has been different. I can stand weeks and weeks just being cooped up in my hostel..err studying...>.< (longest record being 7 weeks =.='). I seriously do not recommend anyone to try this out. The after effects are not too good, kinda like got addicted to studying, and that's not a good thing. =p Currently recuperating by catching up on gossip girl, eh wei how can nate and vanessa break up.. digressing there a moment. =P Sorry.


Even after staying at Shah Alam for almost a year, I can say I've yet to fall in love with the place. There's still many things I complain about. The rules, the *groan* dress code, the administration, the lifestyle and lots of other stuff. But I've learn to appreciate the little things in life that happen just when you need it to. Even though the place might and will always feel alien to me, the people that I've realized that there  will always be someone  there to pull me through the tough times. Throughout this whole year here I've really feel blessed to have a whole bunch of superb friends back in Kuching, and meeting a whole new group of friends in INTEC. When I'm feeling really lonely there will always be my gang back in Kuching who will sms me cheering me up. When worry overcomes me, there's Amy.  When homesickness causes me to tear, there's always my ever-cheerful roomie there for me. When frustration and stress kicks in hard, there's always my jogging hours where I meet up with my so called "jie" to vent out my anger and frustrations. Then there's my classmates that are able to somehow sense my unhappiness and offer words of encouragement, and there are also those friends who can be so spontaneous and adorable sometimes its hard to even feel down around them. In short, the friends here and back home are wonderful. Just wonderful. =D


The flight back home to Kuching was nice. Mainly with me blabbering aimlessly. =) Anyways got some pretty cool tunes to listen to throughout hols. And I really should learn how to take a self-shot using my camera. =D

Friday, March 20, 2009

Time passes too fast when you're having fun

It starts with a burgeoning, visceral dread.
An unexplainable down-ness
Where you wish real hard that it's all a really bad dream
Where you can pinch yourself and awake to a bright sunny morning 
In a place where you always want to be
Where you won't have to drag your feet across the shiny airport floors
Lugging a bag along with a heart that seems heavier than the luggage itself
Climbing up the dull metal stairs off the airplane
Only wishing you could turn back and run far away from that metallic giant bird
Which you know will carry you off to a place you won't ever wanna be
Where you'll be greeted by the o-so familiar sight of downness, misery and all unhappy things
Where you'll sink into an alternate unknown personality
foreign even to yourself
And mentally shut yourself to the surrounding world
trying to lock in as many memories of your hometown
grasping on to them like a lifeline
just to keep on going 
The small sparkle of hope- being able to go home once again
Its all that you're focus on
Your agenda, your motto
Nothing matters more
Than to be able to leave that place
and arrive home
to everything that is familiar


I Loath going back.....

An evening hike

Begins with a pair of nike frees...

And an afternoon Meiji snack...


A slow stroll..


and the ascend...



Random dry leaves....

The descend... 
Odd looking rock structure 

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

I'm gonna blog like I'm using facebook

That means just uploading photos for the sake of Amy who doesn't have facebook and is dying to see photos from KHS fund-raising dinner ( God bless KHS, donate please donate). Bear with vain pointless photos. I said I'm gonna make this like facebook. A more user-unfriendly version though. Nah, amy go drool at pretty girls/guys. Starting to question your sexuality dy. =P kidding, love ya! 
#1 Suddenly feel obligated to comment on each photo. Too facebook-ish photo vain-ish like without comments. SDJBKJJFJKB Amy I planned on sleeping early today and look at the time, the time. Gosh... =)
#2 Okay me and Qi
#3 Jaron. Gosh, Amy the late night mosquito is seriously eating me alive. 
#4 Group photo. I Heart Qi.
#5 Mich Yao. Amy I seriously have to print stuff dy. Stupid mosquito. #6 Flo's uber super duper hebat betul cousins dancing. Man, can they dance. 

#7 Ah,  no wonder I felt so much love that day. =) Kena kissed by Geralyn.

#8 Ah driver. =) eh paiseh i meant chauffeur. =D Kidding kidding.

#9 Was in the super hugging mood that day. Stay tune for more huggable photos. I mean photos with me hugging people.

#10 Forced people to take photo. I paling pandai.

#11 Jaron take photo damn cute one. That's a talent woohohohoo.

#12 Group photo i love. Thank you 3mp camera owner. =)

#13 Tina look so mature here. Agree? =D Amy I'm feeling woozyyyy....
#14 Ah ko Chung Wui and I
#15 Same comment as above. Rujuk atas.
#16 Super pretty gorgeous girls. Drool drool I'm getting tipsy.
#17 Hugging attempt again.
#18 Eileen and I. Failed attempt at hugging.

#19 Another attempt at hugging. See, see getwhatimean??
#20 Nah amy for you to drool some more. You specifically requested girls. Don't look at me though. Thankyouverymuch.
#21 My fingers are getting numb. wtc midnight amy midnight.
#22 CJK CJK CJK. plus Joanne. WTC now I've just noticed her doing that rabbit ears/fertility symbol thingy. Ah, guess I'm still alert enough.
#23 Plus Richard who just got back from NS

#24 See my hair got bling bling. LOL. Gilar dy.
#25 Flo's talented cousins again doing what they do best.
#26 Lin Hui
#27 Connie!!! Performed that night too! 
#28 Amy I'm freezing dy....

Enough???