My over-functioning, over-worked brain

Sometimes I just find it hard to fall asleep at night. Well last night was one of those nights where I felt all hyped up even though my bedtime was drawing near. So, i decided to try out my so called Forest Melody (with 'Doctor's recommended sleeping pill' in smaller font at the bottom) app on my phone. Apparently this application plays out soothing nature-themed music that is supposed to calm you down and get you sleeping soundly in no time. All I had to do was set a timer, and wala~ I'm good to go.

So, after setting the timer for a mere 15 minutes, I hopped onto bed and lay down staring at the darkness around me.

Within a minute....

"I think this is working. The sounds of nature is kind of hypnotizing....."

*imagines self surrounded by lush green trees with birds of all kinds chirping everywhere*

Few seconds later...

"Woah, this IS REALLY soothing! I should try out the other versions of it! Imagine, getting the ocean version.. waves...beach.. sand..."

*brain quickly conjures out image of beach with sand so white it sparkles and the sound of water lapping at the shore*

"I wonder how the river version sounds..."

"Wait, how many more versions are there?? Ocean, river.... and there is another one isn't it? I'm almost SURE there are 3 more.. What's the other one?"

"Its killing me... Should I just go and turn on my computer and download it right this moment?"

"Shuddup, its wayyyy past my bedtime. Plus, I'm too lazy to start up my computer again..."

"I should sleep.....I should REALLY get some rest...Its almost one..."

After a few moments of silence...

"Can I bear with these sounds for 15 minutes? Should I just go turn it off?"

"Aw, I'm too lazy to leave the comfort of my bed, plus I should really get to sleep..."

"Concentrate... breathe...concentrate on soothing musicc...breatheee" (repeats to self another x 5 times)

Moments later...

"I wonder whether there are mosquitoes in the forest I'm dreaming of...."

"Cos' that'll will kinda suck right? Being constantly attacked my mosies. It'll ruin the whole point of the peaceful, relaxed atmosphere I'm trying to create."

"I hate mosquitoes. Remember that time....."

"Wait!! Why am I EVEN thinking about mosquitoes?? Where did that come from???!! *mentally slaps self* GO TO SLEEP!!"

"Sleep...sleep...sleep.."

"Its giving me a headache, you know.. making myself go to sleep...."

Suddenly, the music stops for a moment.....

"Wait....what???!! 15 minutes is up??!!"

Music continues...

"Oh......"

"15 minutes seems quite long..."

"I should really stop thinking, it makes my head hurt even more...."

"How can I stop thinking when I'm still thinking how to stop thinking. Ahhh...." *grabs head in pain*

"Stop. stop. stop. stop. Green. Forest. Bird. Waterfall. Breathe."

"I should blog about this. Its insane. Talking to myself in the death of the night. Hhmph."

"Should. Sleep. Sleep."

Drifted off to sleep sometime after this. Dreaming of such...

Oh well.

My life. =)

.....

She sat in the corner trying desperately to claw away at the darkness engulfing her. She tried desperately to resist the shadow clouding her thoughts and judgements. She wanted the taunting in her head to stop. She wanted it to stop , she wanted to take control and break free from the swelling darkness. Her hands didn't seem to belong to her anymore. Her brain seemed to be under the clutches of some unseen force.

When it finally did stop, she hated the feeling that overwhelmed her. She hated her actions. She hated herself for losing control. She hated herself.

Little girl

Sometimes I wish for a moment there,

Can I be that little girl again,

That stuck to her daddy all the time,

following him on business trips all around.

Or the little girl who was so naive,

that got easily scared of horror stories,

and as the darkness creeps in,

will hold her brother's hand to sleep.

Can I be the little girl,

whose head could only reach up to the tabletop,

eyeing the plate of food on the table,

begging mummy for another piece.

And the girl that lies her head,

upon her sister's lap she rests.

As her sister brushes her hair,

and braids it into a neat little plait.

Sometimes I wonder whether I really could,

turn back time and keep it there,

ban all worries from my head,

and smile like a little girl once again.

So can I be that girl once more,

And cuddle in Your arms and tell You my troubles,

and will you hold me tight,

and reassure me that every thing's gonna be alright?

Friends, Fun and a Festival

Gingerbread men

Wonders

I guess miracles do happen in real life..ain't it so?

Guess I just need to have a little more faith. =)

The Weather

Am feeling so utterly sticky now....

Am super glad I'm nowhere near Shah Alam..

Am uber thankful that my parents installed an air-con unit in my room

Am annoyed why I can't seem to be able to transfer photos from my hp to the computer

Am supposed to be in bed right now

Am wondering what I did for the past 2 weeks

Am chastising myself for not starting to edit my bio unit 3 thingy

Am procrastinating

Am blog-hopping

Am amazed how one's blog reveals so much about one's personality

Am realizing how kepo I'm by reading other's blog

Am reassuring self that it is a girl's nature to be kepo

Am repeatedly trying to transfer data from my hp to the lappie

Am missing my 5s2 gang badly 

Am regretting how much we all have seem to drift apart

Am missing my KHS juniors..

Am missing my sons and daughters and grandsons n granddaughters..

you guys know who you are =)

Am wishing I didn't even stepped into INTEC 

Am hopeful that this is just a bad dream

Am wishing to be young and carefree again

Am praying hard that this hols passes super duper slowly 

Am being emo again

Am hating Shah Alam

for no apparent reason

Am satisfied cuz I managed to transfer the photos

finally

Am having to turn in now

Big day ahead

Yawn

Up ahead...scandalous sem 2 pictures...kidding

Movies, tv shows and such

Night at the museum 2 was hilarious. A great watch. =) Practically laughed my head off watching it.

Wait...where's my head? =P  

Finally got a good look at Kuching's only functioning cinema which was and still is under renovation. Obviously the cinema has turned into someone's fantasy land. The colours are...erm amazing. The lifts are now brightly lit. And the lifts are so new till the open buttons on the lift are not functioning. =P

The final episode of season 2 of Gossip Girl was satisfying enough. Finally, F-I-N-A-L-L-Y the emergence of Chair(chuck+blair). The ending was sweet..can't wait for more.

Bride wars was so-so. A few funny moments here and there. But it still can't beat 27 dresses. That movie just makes you go "Awwwwwwww........"

Hotel for Dogs is cute. That sorta light, enjoyable disney-like happy-ending movies. The dogs are so adorableeeeeeeeeeeee........

Wolverine is gooooooddddddd if you're watching the original. If you've got the ciplak copy of it expect wires hanging everywhere and an imaginary island. HAHAHA, its hilarious once you come to think of it. =D but its still good.

Shopaholic is embarrassingly funny. In a bimbotic way.

Angus, thongs and perfect snogging is nice nice nice especially if you're a girl. *drools* If you get what I mean. Brits speak so....*sigh blissfully*

Marley and me is a good watch too. =) ROFL at the part when Marley was half out of the car (watch and you'll know). Sad ending though. Beware, it can make you cry. sniff.

Scanned through Butterfly Effect 3. Gross. Seriously gross. BE3 turned into some horror film filled with gore. So much for a superb Butterfly Effect 1 and 2.

Be With You is touching. An amazing japanese love story. Family orientated kind not the typical soapy moany love triangle blah crap.

Chuck season 2 is nice. Woot~ Chuck knows kung fuuuuuuuuuu..... =D

Taylor Swift's latest album is a hit!! whoa~~ 

p/s Saboteur anyone??? Laser tag?? 

An evening hike

Begins with a pair of nike frees...

And an afternoon Meiji snack...


A slow stroll..

and the ascend...

Random dry leaves....

The descend... 
Odd looking rock structure 

Teeheehee =D

Going back today.

yar, going back to that-that-that- place today. Will be very hard for me to update my blog there due to the superrrrrrrr slowwwwwwwwwwww internet connection and the difficulty to find a computer there. 3 more weeks * sabarnyaaaaaa* till study leave. And then we'll shall see. Kuching waittttttt forrrrrrrr meeeeeeeeee.. Shall be getting home in 6 more weeks. 6 more bloody weeks. Ah. for now. Stay tune for my next update. In em... =) you know lar.... lecehnya to online over there. Love you guys. Mwah mwah

Tell me again.

Tell me again, what am I doing staring at my computer screen. Yes, I have been ask countless times, whether I've packed. No, I haven't. My clothes are still snugly lying in my wardrobe, my bag lies there empty. No visible signs that I'm leaving, in ____ *fill it in* days. Amy would say that I'm simply living in denial.

Forms, forms and more forms that were meant to be filled in weeks ago are still strewn about, half-filled. Have just decided to meet up with Amy tomorrow to motivate myself to fill them up. Documents to be certified, agreements to be signed, things to be bought, left to the very last week. Yes, I'm guilty of procrastinating.

The only thing I've actually been fervently doing is plan outings. Movie on Wednesday night, laser tag (Kershia dear, skip school one day, and we'll go blast each other with lasers. =D), and another yet-to-be planned outing on Friday. Anything but packing. Someone slap me.

To redeem myself, I'm mentally picturing how to fit everything into my bag. Mentally calculating how much my bag is going to weigh, and, my, the numbers don't look too good. Have I redeemed myself?

Have just finished chatting with David. He was just telling me about Canis Sapiens. Yep those that are found in *cough* school. Canis Sapiens and a poor nail cutter and a paranoid Head of All Canis Sapiens. Owh, Dav, gonna miss you lots, remember *cough* u suck *winks*.

Am chatting with Crystal. Hope to be able to meet with her some time soon. Been ages since I've met her. Sigh, reminds me of the good 'ol times we had debating together and swiveling around in those swingy office-like chairs. *grins* She's still pretty busy sorting out her stuff though.



Crap, Jing just said that she hates INTEC.




Phew, she explained that is because there's no Kuching friends over there.



Okay, I'll shall redeem myself again by mentally omitting stuff from my luggage bag.

Ticket Booked

Saturday.
28 June.....
9++ p.m..........

Post ended 'cos feeling too emo liaw. HAHAHA some one stop me........

What say you?

A levels at INTEC, twinning at IMU?

Orrrrrrrr..........

Form 6?

Me need helpy. =(

Calling All KHS 5s2'07 People

Yooooohooo, if somehow you've been left in the dark and know absolutely nothing about the 5s2 website, please please do go visit it here :

http://5s2khs07.ucoz.com/blog/

Since I've kindly inform you about it. You're obligated to visit the website. =D And all those 5s2 '07 bloggers, do please blog there ( occasionally will be suffice ). Thank you. And if I'm not wrong, Ricky is the creator. Correct me if my assumptions are incorrect.

Random chatter

Well, Malaysian Dreamgirl has finally come to an end. A very disappointing finale actually. How can Cindy win arh? Really wanted Hanis to win as she was the most promising and the most deserving of the three ( top three). Totally agree with what Alison said about Cindy being her family's dreamgirl rather than Malaysian Dreamgirl. Her filthy rich family is probably the reason why she even won this contest. >.< Damn unfair, I hope that the voting system will change for the upcoming season.

On the other hand, I've no idea how Adeline was able to make it this far. Since the very beginning, she exudes this vibe that I just can't bear with. I'll get peevish every single time she talks. Quote her : Actually...bla bla bla..actualli..bla bla..actually.bla.. actuali.. Tell me, how not to get annoyed when she talks??!! But when Hanis keeps saying macam..macam... I don't mind, 'cos she's so sweeett! Haha, I'm so biased.

If given a choice, I think the top 3 ( out of the top6) should be Hanis, Jay and Nadia/ Ringo. Nadia 'cos she's been fighting hard to get this. Literally fighting. Ringo 'cos..I LOVE HER BLOG..and her dog, aiyak, I admit I'm so damn biased. >.<. Jay because she's really professional in the modeling world,takes really good pictures ( with the exception of one) and performs extremely well on the runway. Hanis 'cos she's improved lots since the start and has this sweet,demure look that will look perfect on magazine covers. But, anyway its all over already. So, congrats to Cindy for winning the title then.....All the best to Hanis though.... =)

Enough bout Malaysian Dreamgirl ( or some might fondly know it as Malaysian Dramagirl =P). My sis is back here in Kuching for her electives. Hence, my house, um, my room to be exact, looks as if a whirlwind has just passed through it ( OMC, I'm getting darn good at this exaggeration thingy.) Now, my room is so packed with products-hair products, makeup remover, makeup, face products...you name it, my room has it.

Products.....

And some more products.......

And some more...........>.<

If I somehow knock down one of her expensive products it ain't really my fault, right? On the bright side, according to Mum, we can use those, um, stuff for free.....

Anyway, its still great to have my sis back. Even though she leaves things lying about...and is somehow immune to her alarm clock..........

Plumbers turn Doctors

When a simple 'ol "plumber" just doesn't do your occupation much justice....

You can always achieve your life-long dream of becoming a distinguished doctor. Who says doctors are the sort that deals with medicine and living things? Non-living things need someone to nurse them back to health too!

And look where a freaking creative title got this guy to. He drives a Mercedes to work, okay??!! And probably earns as much as a doctor does....

Most Wanted Guy

This guy is SOOOOO dead. =P

Haywire Judgement

Amy's sense of good and evil has gone crazy.

For her,
Moral is evil.
Biology is good.
Chemistry is evil.
Chocolates are good.
Dumb movies are evil.
Dumb movies with hot guys are good.

She also thinks that Laziness, Sarcasm and Conspiring Against Friends are good traits.
And now she's pathetically trying to convince me that what she and Flo are conspiring to do behind my back is For My Own Good.
Quote Her : It's for your own good ( x 100000000). It's for Keren's future sake! ( grammatical error =P)

Good one Amy, I'm sure I'm really convinced. =P

Sarcasm

Sarah says Amy gets her sarcasm from me.
I think otherwise.
What ya think? =P