Wednesday, September 22, 2010

The breach

It all started with a simple question.

It was a fine, clear night. The lady was perched on the side of the bed as usual, watching her meticulously tidying up the messy desk.

As nonchalantly as possible, the lady asked, " The, um, you-know-what thing, it's safely locked away right? 12 bolts all tightly locked up?"

She startled. The lady has never brought up that issue since the past few months. The darkest past few months. She shuddered at the mere thought of it.

"Yes, behind a heavy metal door 12 inches thick."

"Oh, yes...." The slight frown on the lady's face disappeared as quickly as it appeared.

"Why? Is something bothering you?" She glanced up at the lady.

"Oh, no. Just wondering." The lady chirped. A big smile plastered on her face.

Then she saw it again. The quickest flash of darkness across the lady's eyes. She blinked. The lady was still smiling cheerily at her.

" You can go now. It's getting late too. Better get some rest. I need my beauty sleep too," she winked.

She looked at the lady again, with a worried frown on her face.

"Sure if you say so."

She then turned around abruptly and walked to the door, her light footsteps barely making an indention on the carpet beneath.

As she walked along the long hallway to her bedroom, she mulled over the lady's question, clearly disturbed by it.

When she tucked herself in bed, her mind was still whirling, the question still giving her the jitters. She thought about the past few weeks. The sudden, occasional glimpse of a shadow, the lady's more than frequent refusal to leave the house other than for work purposes, the lack of guests knocking at the door, and the lady's eyes, yes, those eyes, seemed darker than usual. Black. The blackness of something forbidden. Evil. And the lady, unknowingly, was more cynical than usual. Throwing hurtful remarks around, which were then quickly disguised as a joke with a "I'm just kidding" line. And the cheeriness, those big smiles and the cheerful sing-song tone, were merely a mask, a cover up. She knew so because she was the only one who was able to look deep into the lady's eyes, which tell a different story altogether.

But then, she thought about the 12 inch thick metal door, and the 12 bolts, and she shook her head.

"It just can't be possible", she whispered to herself, "It just can't be..."

Finally, after an hour of tossing and turning around in her bed, she pulled off the covers and slipped her bare feet onto the cold tiled floor. She just had to take a quick look, just a peek, to reassure herself. She dug around in her bedside drawer until her fingers closed around a heavy metal key, and she slipped it into her pants pocket.

She tip-toed passed the lady's room and hurried down the stairs, as quietly as possible. She did not want to wake the lady and cause her unnecessary worry. When she reached the basement, she flicked on the light switch. Utter darkness. It wasn't unusual as they rarely bothered to check on the lights down at the basement since they barely come down this far. Her hands groped around in the dark until she found the cabinet where they stored some candles and matches in case of an emergency. Deftly, she lighted a candle, the sudden glow from the candle blinding her a moment, as her eyes adjusted to her surroundings. She stared around at the dimly lit basement, her eyes resting on a heavy wooden door to her right, and her heart started to beat furiously.

"Don't be ridiculous," She reassured herself, "Everything will be fine."

She stepped towards the door, and slipped the key into the keyhole. With a swift turn of the key, the door swung open, revealing an empty room. Empty except for a huge heavy metal cabinet bolted shut by 12 locks in the corner.

She gingerly walked towards the cabinet, using the dimming light from the candle to illuminate the way. Carefully, she ran her fingers on the surface of the cabinet, holding the candle up high, scrupulously checking for any damage or openings.

After a thorough search, she stepped back, satisfied.

"Silly me, of course there's nothing to worry about," She muttered to herself.

Then, just abruptly, her candle flickered. A slight flicker. She gasped.

"It's probably just my imagination running wild," She thought, "I should get some rest."

Just as she turned to leave, it happened again. The flicker of the candle. More noticeable this time. She scurried over to the cabinet again, searching, looking for signs of a leakage.

Then, she saw it.

The tiniest gap. The smallest breach. But big enough for It. She held her candle to the hole, and it flickered as a stream of darkness flowed out from it. She let out a small yelp and scampered to the door, quickly locking it behind. She then dashed up the stairs, rushing to the lady's room, not bothering to lighten her footsteps. She had to warn the lady.

She came to a halt outside the lady's door, panting, catching her breath. Then it happened right before her eyes. The slightest wisp of darkness curled itself around the door knob, creating a makeshift bolt.

And then, there was a slight laughter. A barely audible sinister laughter. She stifled a whimper as she backed away from the door.

She had to get help. She didn't know how, but she just had to.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

My over-functioning, over-worked brain

Sometimes I just find it hard to fall asleep at night. Well last night was one of those nights where I felt all hyped up even though my bedtime was drawing near. So, i decided to try out my so called Forest Melody (with 'Doctor's recommended sleeping pill' in smaller font at the bottom) app on my phone. Apparently this application plays out soothing nature-themed music that is supposed to calm you down and get you sleeping soundly in no time. All I had to do was set a timer, and wala~ I'm good to go.

So, after setting the timer for a mere 15 minutes, I hopped onto bed and lay down staring at the darkness around me.

Within a minute....

"I think this is working. The sounds of nature is kind of hypnotizing....."

*imagines self surrounded by lush green trees with birds of all kinds chirping everywhere*

Few seconds later...

"Woah, this IS REALLY soothing! I should try out the other versions of it! Imagine, getting the ocean version.. waves...beach.. sand..."

*brain quickly conjures out image of beach with sand so white it sparkles and the sound of water lapping at the shore*

"I wonder how the river version sounds..."

"Wait, how many more versions are there?? Ocean, river.... and there is another one isn't it? I'm almost SURE there are 3 more.. What's the other one?"

"Its killing me... Should I just go and turn on my computer and download it right this moment?"

"Shuddup, its wayyyy past my bedtime. Plus, I'm too lazy to start up my computer again..."

"I should sleep.....I should REALLY get some rest...Its almost one..."

After a few moments of silence...

"Can I bear with these sounds for 15 minutes? Should I just go turn it off?"

"Aw, I'm too lazy to leave the comfort of my bed, plus I should really get to sleep..."

"Concentrate... breathe...concentrate on soothing musicc...breatheee" (repeats to self another x 5 times)

Moments later...

"I wonder whether there are mosquitoes in the forest I'm dreaming of...."

"Cos' that'll will kinda suck right? Being constantly attacked my mosies. It'll ruin the whole point of the peaceful, relaxed atmosphere I'm trying to create."

"I hate mosquitoes. Remember that time....."

"Wait!! Why am I EVEN thinking about mosquitoes?? Where did that come from???!! *mentally slaps self* GO TO SLEEP!!"

"Sleep...sleep...sleep.."

"Its giving me a headache, you know.. making myself go to sleep...."

Suddenly, the music stops for a moment.....

"Wait....what???!! 15 minutes is up??!!"

Music continues...

"Oh......"

"15 minutes seems quite long..."

"I should really stop thinking, it makes my head hurt even more...."

"How can I stop thinking when I'm still thinking how to stop thinking. Ahhh...." *grabs head in pain*

"Stop. stop. stop. stop. Green. Forest. Bird. Waterfall. Breathe."

"I should blog about this. Its insane. Talking to myself in the death of the night. Hhmph."

"Should. Sleep. Sleep."

Drifted off to sleep sometime after this. Dreaming of such...




Oh well.
My life. =)



Friday, September 10, 2010

Raya 2010










Definitely worth drooling about.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Colours

Just because the world can seem so much more colourful.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Simple no more



These days, I realize that blogging does not come so easily to me anymore. I can no longer sit down and just blog about my everyday life. My posts are no longer simple, easily understood and deciphered. My old posts now seem much more superficial than what I have to say now, the posts being a mere blurry reflection of my past self.

Nowadays, the urge to blog only seems to come when I have something deeper to share, and, my posts mainly deal with feelings -complicated ones in fact- causing my writings to be multi-layered, carrying more meaning than it seems at the first glance. My writings conceal more than I let on, more than I can ever bring myself to speak out. My posts can sometimes be a cry of help, a place to rant, a place to reflect on the past.

And I too am not as simple and easily figured out as I used to be. In the past, my feelings could easily be described using simple words - sad, happy, angry, worried, afraid. Now, ' It's indescribable', 'It's complicated' and ' I don't want to talk about it' are more likely answers to 'how are you feeling' questions. Its no more as simple as saying 'I'm afraid because I've just sat through a very horrible horror movie'. Now, it seems like a whirlwind of emotions can suddenly surround me and sweep me away at any moment. I can be cheerful and spirited, then nervous and worried and lousy and hurt at the same moment. Sometimes, I don't even get myself.

I tend to be more observant, ponder and contemplate situations more thoroughly and be more sensitive to other's actions. I tend to dwell on stuff more, mull over the past and the present, envisage the future. My goals and priorities too have changed, and I'm more certain of what I want.


And I'm grateful. I'm thankful for the people I've met, the changes I had to undergo, the hurdles that I have and yet to have overcome. I'm thankful for all that's happen to me, even though sometimes its hard to fully comprehend certain situations. And I'm thankful that I survived.


Note: I am still terrified of horror movies. End result is an inability to sleep after. Movies/books with thriller/tinge of horror elements sends my brain into overdrive, which causes me to dream of weird random stuff, like my teddy killing me, being watched, conspiring *cough* and funny-looking animals. Hence, the disturbed patterns of sleep due to the recent stuffing of books such as Pretty Little Liars into my poor brain. Oh, the horrors of a scandalous psycho series.

Double note: I seem to be constantly attacked by mosquitoes lately. Which is weird. Cos' I'm a far cry from the typical moany,dopey, pale mosquito-loving Bella.



Oh, and Hello there. I'm melting to the most mushy romantic song ever.