Wonders

I guess miracles do happen in real life..ain't it so?

Guess I just need to have a little more faith. =)

Messed up

I know I'm supposed to feel elated, excited, enthusiastic, overjoyed.. you name it.. but I'm just feeling the opposite. INTEC closing for a week due to the H1N1 virus is.... nothing but a shock to me. Going home is supposed to be a good thing. Having holidays come early is supposed to be like a dream come true. But the only thing I feel is messed up. My mind is a jumble of tangles and knots. I can't think well I can't function normally. The only thing on my mind is the cancellation of Mid-sem break. I had everything planned out so well. Planning how I was going to breeze pass this remaining month. Meeting my sister back home. Going for family outings. Meeting friends. The perfect august holidays. Now, its just like *poof* and everything is gone with a snap of your fingers. And have I mentioned about the price of the tickets..I don't know what to pack. I'm afraid, worried and feeling like I'm gonna cry again. This is so not what I should feel. Just when I thought I had my momentum going, finally having the willpower to survive this remaining few weeks, everything is just halted abruptly. I hope I'll survive. I do hope so.. I've just gotta untangle this mess in my head. Praying real hard. Telling myself everything happens for a reason. Trying to find the light at the end of the tunnel. Biting my tongue to stop cursing again. Praying real hard. I'll survive INTEC.... some how...

Growing up

The emotional tortures, why doesn't it ever go away?

As time passes, isn't one suppose to get use to everything?

Why is the frustration and tears still there?

Why does the tears flow for no reason?

Why does the urge to scream doesn't ever go away?

Why does the ability to laugh naturally seems far-fetched?

Why does memories cause you to lose control?

Why does staring into space become a daily routine?

Why does the feeling to curl up into a ball and shut yourself away from the world seems welcoming?

Why do you feel like you're losing your mind?

Why do you feel hopeless?

Why can't the tears stop?

Why can't anyone stop the pain?

Why can't everything be as it was?

Why can't anything seem to be able to cheer you up?

Why does growing up hurt so much?

Why do we have to grow up?