An unexplainable down-ness
Where you wish real hard that it's all a really bad dream
Where you can pinch yourself and awake to a bright sunny morning
In a place where you always want to be
Where you won't have to drag your feet across the shiny airport floors
Lugging a bag along with a heart that seems heavier than the luggage itself
Climbing up the dull metal stairs off the airplane
Only wishing you could turn back and run far away from that metallic giant bird
Which you know will carry you off to a place you won't ever wanna be
Where you'll be greeted by the o-so familiar sight of downness, misery and all unhappy things
Where you'll sink into an alternate unknown personality
foreign even to yourself
And mentally shut yourself to the surrounding world
trying to lock in as many memories of your hometown
grasping on to them like a lifeline
just to keep on going
The small sparkle of hope- being able to go home once again
Its all that you're focus on
Your agenda, your motto
Nothing matters more
Than to be able to leave that place
and arrive home
to everything that is familiar
I Loath going back.....